Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Rounding the Corner

Recently, I have been attempting to re-focus my life. I have been attempting to weed out the unnecessary things that are tying me down and holding me back from learning and loving on Jesus Christ. In my attempt, I haven;t been totally successful, but I do feel that in my attempt I am hoping that God is pleased in seeing my hard work. I am also trying to focus on what is truly important in life, like my son and my husband and my family and friends. I feel as though these are the kinds of things that when I am old and gray, I will look back and be happy that I passed on many other unneeded opportunities, that though may seem great and amazing at the time, to spend time with those that mean the very most to me. So, as I begin to limit my time on the internet (something I am having a hard time doing), limit my time watching TV, limit my time wasted fretting over a super clean house, and worrying about what other's think of me, I am spending more time with JM, more time with the hubby, and the times we are spending together are full of far more quality than ever before. The hubby and I are having CONVERSTATIONS...yeah...actually exchanging thoughts and ideas and working together to be the very best parents and spouses we can be. I have discovered more happy faces and fun times occurring lately, I absolutely love it.

I have always been quite the worrier and have always been self-conscious of myself, worrying what other people think of me. Yet, in my walk towards Jesus I have come to learn that it doesn't matter what others think, because in the end, the only person you need to please is God. He is the only one that will judge me when my time comes (and all before that of course). So when it comes to insignificant issues in my life that I cannot control, I am working on letting it blow right by me. I have been doing a fairly good job at this too I think. It might come across to some people that I am being selfish or heartless, but I know what is inside of my heart and God knows what is inside of my heart. And again, that is all that matters.

So in this "attempt" to limit the internet, I am only going to be online to do things that matter. Like the occasional introspective blog, pay bills, write my PayU2Blogs (sorry, mama needs the $$), write my occasional articles for Smart Mama (keep an eye out, I should have a new one coming soon), and attempting to get my Etsy shop up and running (again..mama needs some $$. I am going to be making/selling Soy Candles and Soaps). This may be a bit of a struggle. I know it, but I am willing to take the challenge.


Also, in my "free time" (do mama's even have that?!?!), I am going to read the Bible. Yes, I said it. And I going to dive in, head first and just do it. I have been putting it off time and time again because it was getting really confusing. But I was given some ideas from our Small Group, that maybe starting in the New Testament would be easier than actually starting at the beginning and that the New Testament is more of what we are living NOW, so it should be easier to understand. I really want to be able to recite Scripture and the Word on call, really I do. And for me, that is truly a challenge, since I have such a hard time remembering ANYTHING I read. But in 8th grade, I memorized the Preamble to the Constitution. So maybe I can use that as my inspiration.


As each new day comes and goes and brings along more and more sunshine and happiness, I am developing into a better person. I have many people to thank for that...you know who you are.




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6 comments:

Adventures In Babywearing said...

I am so excited for you!

Steph

Carrington said...

THIS is a big step, an awesome step. Maybe you will look back on this post in the future and say "hey, thats the day my life changed forever", as you look back on how much intimacy with the Lord you have experienced through reading and learning His Word.

This Military Mama said...

You have a great focus going! Keep up the great work. Remember we crawl before we walk, walk before we run, and run before we can sprint. We trip, tumble, stumble, and bumble all the time so just pick your self up and keep going. God never gives up on us so don't give up on Him!

The Flip Flop Mamma! said...

You never cease to amaze me...the preamble?? Seriously? LOL. Good job for reading the bible!! I told you before, but if you ever need any help, please ask me or my hubs, he's crazy smart!

Mama C-ta said...

A little different but I am too right there with you, trying to limit time to certain things and and re-focus on what and who is really important.

Best of luck to you, sounds like you're on the right path.

Not Just Any Jen said...

Jen, I get where you are coming from. Spring always brings about some changes for me, but this time I had some big ones to take care. Change is good! Good luck in your journey.