Monday, March 14, 2011

maybe

maybe i have poor concentration.

maybe i am a horrible multi-tasker.

maybe i need more sleep than most other people do.

maybe my kids misbehave more than other kids.

maybe my kids require more undivided attention than other kids.

maybe working outside of the house over 30 hours a week is a part of it.

maybe i require a bit cleaner of a house than most (which is truly a ridiculous statement, have you EVER seen my house?).

I really want a better online presence. And not for the reason's of prestige or recognition or popularity at all. I just really enjoy writing, and sharing my stories and photos. I love being able to write about things that matter to me. I lovemaking friens that truly hold common interests and even those of opposing viewpoints, because i have some of my BEST conversations with other mom's (and non-mom's) online. Mutual respect in the online world that "I" live in is "genereally" pretty commonplace. And the support is immeasurable. I have found so many shoulders to cry on and virtual hugs, it feels like you are all right there with me, through the good, the bad, and the in between. i'm not interested in becoming a budding entreprenuer or creating much of a business out of me. But I do love te connections I have make with so many brands and organizations and I'd love to keep those connections strong and genuine. And in order to keep those connections, I need a regularly posted on blog.

I think maybe it's got something to do with the season of my children. Two toddlers. Strong-willed, busy, energetic, demanding, cuddly, loud, interesting, loving toddlers (Did you know that RIGHT NOW, I have a 2 year old and a 3 year old? Jonah will be four in 12 days). Maybe other peoples kids are more docile and can entertain themselves.

I know I am not supposed to compare. And I certainly would not trade any of this for the world.

I just wish that maybe, one day, I can write more, engage more, complete more.

2 comments:

Laila said...

I was having this feeling a couple of weeks ago (still have it now) and am trying to make sense of it all.

Last week was the first time I posted M-F and that is because I scheduled posts. I realize with my busy schedule that is the only way it's going to get done. I have to craft the time into my schedule. I think a part of it is also about finding a niche.

Brooke said...

Hang in there - it gets better! Keep finding time to do what you love though, you will appreciate it way more than a clean house - 10 years from now :D